Life for me, I can honestly say, has been nice for a change. I don't stress about my relationship problems anymore. I'm making more friends... and I'm getting closer to them. When I focused strictly on my relationship... I wouldn't allow myself to get close to others... but now I'm not allowing myself to deal with all the stress. I used to cry practically every other day... now I haven't cried in over a week I LOVE my new friends to death. Especially Luke (who saved me when my car broke), Ade (who's definitely going sky diving with me one day), and Albert (who is a total cheat in Apples to Apples) hahahaha there are others but I haven't gotten close to them just yet. I don't know.... i feel like I can breathe again. It's just too hard to be the only one stressing over the relationship with the other doesn't give two shits. I mean I too work my ass off full time, have family issues, struggle to keep friends, and yet I STILL had time to try to make things right... maybe I just stressed too much and cared too much. I just need to let things flow and let chance make our path for us. I cannot just FORCE things to be happy.

It's it's meant to be, it will be. If not... God has better plans for us. I just want Chris to be happy. He's my best and closest friend and I love the fucker to death

omg I'm SO fucking tired, I just want to sleep but I HAVE to get ready for work